This is my outlet for my anger and should be viewed and not said.
Viewer Discretion is Advised.
To think i'd rather do this than do RJ. After all, this is voluntary while Rjs are mandatory. here is a nice note. If your like me, a sadist, then read this... http://www.real-crime.co.uk/Murder1/docbmen.htm#Baekeland, its a whose who and what in the world of crime. Speaking of crime... Let me ask u...
If a person does this to you:
1) keeps calling you soo fat
2) keeps insulting you
3) always rakes up the past even though u aren't tt person any more
4) says stuff which is totally ridiculous??
Will you stand it? Even if its your FMOM? (no typo error). This is why i'm so screwed up. I shall explain it to you one by one.
1) Lets call her FB. FB keeps insulting me in front of people like my relatives,like FAT this, FAT that. I want to kill her ok. So i like the way i am... Is that a problem???? I fucking like the way I am and if i want to die early, it will be MY choice. Go and DIE MFB!!!
2) Yeah, every little thing will evoke a snide remark. I can't stand it. Sometimes I just wanna slap her.. but i'm biding my time... trust me, that day will come.
3) Every time i wanna watch something and she is already watching, she will scream at me abt the past things I did. And even so, I'm not like that now... keep bringing it up BITCH?!?!? I'll fucking snap you in 2.
4) I want a TV in my room. Don't let me. Why? Cuz I will stay in my room all day. SO?!?! i WON'T ok FB....Stupid bitch won't let me watch the TV cuz its her fucking money. SO, if I pay for my own can right??? WRONG. She is sooo stupid i bet she hasn't even found her brain yet. Plus she will curse me with stuff like you will never get a job and die poor, you will never get a friend, your husband will beat you, your future kids will hate you. (yes she says that TO MY FACE) What kind of MFB says that to her own kin?!?!?? I wanna tell her to fuck off but i have some level of decency so, in my mind, i'm mentally planning for payback.
I've been holding inside for many years now and finally get to release it out. STUPID ASS. And guess what? Everytime FB talks all i hear is "WAH WAH WAH" or " NAG NAG NAG". There is so much more I can add. Like how FB will put on an act for outsiders and once in the safety confines of an enclosed, sound proofed place and out of earshot of anyone, hear FB go CRAZY. She would start her noise and scream and scream abt shit and more shit. In the end, everyone will have problems with their own P's and M's, but i just choose to vent my frustrations here cuz i can and i will. And people wonder why I'm crazy sometimes. I like to be alone sometimes and i NEED my space.
I would have put up worse words, but it shall forever remain with me.
Anyways, Digressing further.... LIVE THE DREAM IS A FUCKED UP SHOW. NO ONE CAN SING, THERE IS NO TALENT. Why do i say that? Personally, i have had nothing against that show. But honestly sitting through that idiotic show when I could have watched BOSTON LEGAL. Its so frustrating. Especially when they totally screwed up the song "What I've done by Linkin park". THEY CANNOT SING AND THIS SHOW SHOULD HAVE BEEN CANCELLED AT ITS PLANNING STAGES.
So why was i late for school? Blame that FB and that fucked up show. I had to wait until 2 for the show to start. I kno u think i'm stupid. To wait so long for the show to start? Especially when there was the repeats? Well, I when i want to watch a show on that day, I WILL. Blame FB, Blame the Fucked up show. Blame me.. whatever. I think people should thank the lords when I'm angry at something, it won't last long. If not, I will come after people with such vengeance. Oh! To think if I carried out my thoughts at the peak of my anger, I would have no family, 90% of the people I know would have died and I would be psychiatric evaluated every 6 months.
I would also like to mention a person who is a kiss ass. "Oh yeah, u know this, u know that..." BLAH BLAH BLAH.... fucking piece of shit. I HATE KISS ASSES. Their mouths are filthy from all the shit and they deserve to be shot and their teeth pulled out without Novocaine.
Oh, I might not be angry for long. But I can hold a grudge. And a damn long one. Just you wait. I WILL get you. I'm patient and I'm steady. Watch out
This is damn therapeutic. I should do it more often.
Labels: Carcrashes- Standfast
